into the city, i go *3

Yesterday, went out dinner wit one of my old fren and with her frens too. 4 of us take the tram and head down to docklands. Right after we step out of the tram the firework just started. it was beautiful and romantic. Every friday at docklands there will be fireworks i dun know why. it was quite windy that nite maybe it is because it is near to the sea i guess. anyway we have sum ribs and lamb which is not bad. i also get to know my fren frens. we talk a lot and i really have fun.

After dinner, they bring me to casino!!! HA HA HA but i never gamble it is not my thing i feel that i have bad luck if i gamble. 2 of them gamble a bit. Ok sumthing freaky happen, this is the conversation

Fren 1 : hey, what should we bet?
Me : let's bet on small

conclusion : yes, it came out small but sadly my fren didnt believe me bet on big

Fren 1 : okey, this time what should we bet?
Me : 6

conclusion : yes, i got it right again! but my fren still dun believe me bet on 4

Fren 1 : okey celia this time i believe you what number?
Me : 13 (random pick but feeling lucky on it)

conclusion : yes it happen again1!!! my fren bet on it and we got shock!

HAHHAHAHAHA! 3 time in a row wei!! wth!but the 4th time no luck already

so my fren stop playing and we head down to melbourne central and drink. the stupid Heineken taste so yucky!!! makes me sore throat. never drink that again i gonna drink hoegarden :) my favourite. we play sum game it was quite funny :D Then my fren is hungry go get sum LORD OF THE FRIES! they are awesome delicious! i love them.
head out to my place for awhile then cioa.

conclusion : i had a fun nite :)but didnt catch fish that nite :P

such a long week

this week i feel the time fly by takes so long. it is only the end of the week of July. i was hoping for the end of week of August, sadly it isnt. This week it is my first week of studying in RMIT, it went okay but i feel like it is so hard to make friends here. i think i need a thicker face and have sum guts to go up to people. People here is like sticking to your own group and not all of them are that friendly. Hopefully i could go through this depression. Anyway overall i like sum of my classes which is not bad and i like my timetable :) oh except i dun like my team mates but i no choice :(

hopefully i could go through this all disaster.

pray and finger crossing.

bloody hell

i though you were someone that i could count on when im here.
i though you were suppose to be tour guide like as you promise to
i though we suppose to do everything together in class
i though that you were my really good friend
i told you everything, everything that i about secret
i feel like a fool
because you didnt keep your promise
you tell me how excited you were when i am coming here
now you just avoid me like a fucking stranger
all men lie
fucking liar
i never ever want to trust so easily to anyone
when they promise me something
i dont even want to hear or think about it

i dont want to talk to u ever.

into the city, i go *2

day 3, it was a saturday i got nothing to do and no one ajak to go out like in malaysia. I brought some dvd to watch so i wouldnt be so bored. i slept early cos i am so freaking tired cos of the few days didnt really sleep well. Something happen later at nite and i realize that men are so predictable. i realize what i know want and need from them. if they dont have it, so they arent the one for me. i feel that i overcome the situation after all the breakdown and the pain in my chest. I finally can handle those kind of situation. I feel good and not bad. i can move on like any other day.

I aint that weak anymore :)
and i am proud.

into the city, i go

ok, i have finally settle down in the city. PEOPLE! but honestly it is kind of boring if you know the place well enough. there is not much going yet. hopefully when i start class, things will get better though. OH YEAH, i love my room, it is awesome! will post picture soon in fb :) ok i will update you what i have been doing since i move in!

DAY 1

in morning till nite around 10 somthing, moving my things back and forth. i dun know i have that much stuff! omg! damn a lot of exercise wei... which is good :) freaking tired then wait for my fren to come over. He promise he will come and sleep over and he did :) but damn late onli come.stupid fellow but anyway it was nice of him to accompany me cos it is my first nite :) we chat and watch some movie. it was all good :)

DAY 2

morning and afternoon, nothing much to do. going in and out of my studio apartment cos carrying so many things!!! then go do my rmit card and i didnt know that i need to bring my freaking passport so go back and take. Lucky for me i live near by. fucker wei :P

at nite, my another fren bring me go drink and the pub just next door. it is my first time drinking in melbourne, it was so nice and relax. get to know few people though :) random things happen :) not going to write here, it is private but one thing i can say is that i had a great nite :P

that all for now. today nothing much happen so yeah :) going to stay in :)hearts

this is how i describe of you.

never change

ok, i am over thinking stuff, really. i read back and forth, still don't understand why he doing this. it turns out that he already have something in mind. another disappointment, i guess i am soft hearted and always giving people another chance. At least now i know that he is those kind of people who didn't deserve for me to give another chance. lucky i know it early if not i might just get another breakdown. Like i have said, i am over thinking the whole situation.

the point is, he will never change.

surprisingly

after many years, i just notice he is actually a good listener and easy to talk to :) quite funny himself too. it is good that we get to talk cos we hardly talk to each other last time. I hope that we would be close cousin. i am surprise that he come and knock my door. He talk to me. Wow.... it kind of amazing how people change and what they become. Im glad that your my cousin and we get to chat quite a lot of stuff. Anyway when you come back from holiday, i tell you more about our family and stuff or maybe anything hopefully :)

envious is a bitch

looking at my friends in fb seeing them having so much fun and im not there to share. kind of hurts and makes me miss more back home cos of everyone. I guess i need to deal with it when you are going oversea and study. Hopefully i will get occupied with something cos seriously i feel bored and pathetic like nothing to do. i dont really like so freaking long holiday some more with out my friends and family!it doesnt mean i dont have a good time, i do but i need excitement and some sort of adventure. really....

i guess i just miss back home.

to be in control

something really funny thing happen

i don't know it is a good thing or a bad thing

but one thing i know

is that i need to be in control

to make myself secure

not easily hurt

and most of it

i need to know what i want

maybe i do

or maybe not

it all depends on the time

i need to figure it out on my own

or

i think i don't think too much

and just let it be :)

i rather do that

.heart.

dont you get it!

motherfuckingcunt! i never been so mad! fucking idiots! ok, you guys may think that i am stupid and not doing anything! as you know! they accept me with one condition which is sending my previous result which is last sem! dont you get it! omg! if you were here, you would just get it!!! but nooooooo....... you just know you are smart enough, fucking bitch! if only you read the letter!

RMIT ACCEPT WITH ONE CONDITION! WHICH IS SENDING MY PREVIOUS RESULT!

if i dont, means i cant enroll! i got no one to talk so ya this post is for me just to clear my anger off!

You may think i am doing nothing but i am! i am trying my best to solve this stupid problem. you have no idea!

FUCK THAT LA!

damn that stupid fucking result

ok, what happen was i suppose to get my all my result from all four subject on Monday 12/7/2010 but then one of my subject didnt come out! the reason why is that one of my assessment, the professor didnt know receive which is an individual work and it inform like just last week! they should have inform me earlier cos i sent it asap and orginally, i sent the assessment like a month ago? in May.

why oh why must they inform me so freaking last minute!

because of this, i cant enroll into RMIT! :( hopefully things are gonna be fine!

and hope that RMIT would let me enroll first then later on i give them my result which is just only one subject!

PISS AND FRUSTRATION!

oh ya, i really did well this sem! so happy! :)

it is just the beginning

i finally found the perfect spot where i will be living for this semester. the place is just nice and spacey and i love the big windows! thumbs up for that. These day been shopping and finding place for me to live and also exploring places around. it been great though but sadly my mum has to go back to Malaysia. She just left early today, i cried and she cried too. i will be missing her nagging and complaining but most of all i miss her. i'm worried that she gone be alone.

i guess this is the real beginning for me since my mum has left. the feeling is not i want to feel.

a little bit of sadness, a little bit of loneliness but a little bit of excitement. a mix feeling.

i wonder things back home is alright or not? i also wonder things here is gonna be better?

i hope so cos i'm starting to miss home a little. hearts.

morning flea market

OMGAWD, i slept at 4 am and woke up at 10 am totally forgot about the flee market that my aunty have mention to me :$

anyway, went for the flee market and everyone is there from small to big even dogs. it was fun and super oldies stuff. i get to see a lot of good stuff though :)

i brought sum super-unique-one-of-a-kind-stuff-kind of cheap like that over there! a lot of it is selling second-hand things that they dont want. they even sell bra! wth T.T funny though

after flee market, come back to my aunty house and have sum really awesome lunch! STEAMBOAT during winter... nice and relaxing and syok! it was really nice just sitting outside cold and eat steamboat, syok wei! :D

ya, that about it :)

FYI, photo upload in fb.

disco feeling

Yesterday, went to the city to check out my university, RMIT and also see sum apartment to see which one is available and how it looks like. Not bad some of it but then there is a limitation to it cos there is just a few location only. Hope i get it soon though then i dont need to wait and worried too much. fingers cross!

So, today went for ice skating in ICE HOUSE, for one person is $15 aussie dollar. The place is not bad and got music in the same time, nice music not like oldies music OK! i had a really good time with my mum, lil sis and my aunty uncle. my feet hurts though, i was so afraid that i wud actually fall! but i didnt :D

After the ice skating, i though we will be going back but NO... my lil sis is hungry and they wanna shop for awhile. my feet was killing me, but then i grab sum cheap stuff atleast :P

oh ya, i wear my boots for the first time :P loooking goood :)

how am i doing?

MELBOURNE!

such a long way to walk around the city

seriously!

.hearts.