here i come

Sumtimes it is just the qway that god has set up. nothing could be change or undi we can stop time passing by. sadly we dun hav that kind of super power. so ya goin down there again makes me kind of uneasy because might not know wether it is bad or good news that they will give me. i pray god that everything goes well accordinly. seriously if not when im not here i dun think that my heart will be with me but home worrying. the on thing i could do now is hope for the best of it. everybody say she looks healthy and all but we might not know what is going on inside man and i cant take the risk that by looking at her surface. i dun want to see her faint on my arm again or just unconscious while she is sleeping. i cant. not for now.