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truly saying, the things i am doing i know slowly it is goin to hurt me badly. i have to admit that i do know what is the consequences once i agreed with it. Now, there is no turning back but to get over with it. i guess i done it cos i wanted to feel wanted and secure again. i wanna feel loved. maybe my time is slow. i`m actually fine during the day but at night i couldn't take it. i keep on thinking bad things or bad conclusion. it really hurts me badly. that my heart just stop beating. i kept on repeating and repeating even i get fed up of myself. i need to turn around. one thing for sure, i never stop smiling if i could cos i wanna stay happy as long as i can.

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