confession 1

i walk alone
i eat alone
i drive alone
i sit alone
i study alone
i bath alone
i toilet thingy alone
i listen music alone
i talk to myself (alone)

basically, i can do alone thing like walk around by myself and do things i wanna do but some people just cant cos being alone is awkward sometimes. i guess i`m use to it cos friends are busy doing there own thing, u know maybe some friend aren't close anymore * grew apart sometimes

i dun really mind actually but sumtimes i do love companys ;D

Scratch that

okey, srewed that last post. everything is so clear and done. it is settle and there is no turning back but to look forward. yes, i dun wanna stop it but i can't risk the fact that it is hurting me. i rather sooner and not later so that everything is clear up and there's nothing between us. I'm such a silly girl to fall such a thing tat this time is different but it is not, obviously.

hurt
guilt
burden
responsibility
images
and so many more...

the fact is that.....

it is the true
it is stated and i dun need to say more.

feeling butterfly

every time u response,
i felt butterfly in my tummy,
so tickling and nice,
but i can't felt that way,
cos we had a reason,
it doesn't matter,
all we need is have each other,
for now.

i do like you

vanila and choc ice cream

Honesty is what i need,
the doubt-ness will wash way,
the anxiety would just fade away,
my mind would think of ice-cream.

these day, i have been out of my mind and things tat i just can't seem to solve. After everything has clear out and say what we need to say just to get out of our chest, felt so relief and good that is how ice-cream feels. ;D good...

my mind now wants ice cream... then it would be perfect ;P

wish everything would go well ;D

' I '

truly saying, the things i am doing i know slowly it is goin to hurt me badly. i have to admit that i do know what is the consequences once i agreed with it. Now, there is no turning back but to get over with it. i guess i done it cos i wanted to feel wanted and secure again. i wanna feel loved. maybe my time is slow. i`m actually fine during the day but at night i couldn't take it. i keep on thinking bad things or bad conclusion. it really hurts me badly. that my heart just stop beating. i kept on repeating and repeating even i get fed up of myself. i need to turn around. one thing for sure, i never stop smiling if i could cos i wanna stay happy as long as i can.

;D

midnight headache

have you ever felt that no one wants you?
have you ever felt that you don't belong?

i hate being like this, i do
i don't like it when my heart just can't breathe
at first it was nothing but slowly it will absorb the negative of it

my heart just stop a second ago. that i can't do it anymore.

i need to isolate from everyone. where i already am.

sometimes i wish i was a child again or go disappear if i could.

inside is full of things wanting to come out

so painful

help

temptation rushing through my veins

yesterday, window shopping with kim and also with justin and john but half way went missing . after we finnis our online test which must be done during the holidays, dun know y must be done during holidays kind of potong stim cos it is holiday!! GGRRRRRRR.....

ANYWAY... see sum stuff i wanted to buy and it is damn freaking cheap.. * temptation and drooling

i tell you why okey...

1. thing

K770i
*lynn brought for RM 600 to 700?
NOW = RM500!!
or maybe lower *know sumone actual can potong harga
i so need a new phone cos my phone is cacated *seriously


2.thing
kim recommend me an online boutique
becos i always wanted to buy tis KIND bag

which i found out that it is selling for RM 58

*LAGI TEMPTATION
SUMORE got red colour
so pretty and striking ;D

3. thing
mainly it is clothes
clothes
clothes
clothes
clothes
clothes
CLOTHES..

RAWR..!!

IT IS DRIVING ME CRAZY.......*seriously
Sadly, i need to jaga my budget and my allowance. i only get to choose sum. ;(

humans GREEDY animals especially WOMEN (shopping) and men too.

aaarrrggghhhhh......

i wish money is like rain, just drop it from the sky ;D then everyone is happy