i have made up my mind

finally i could just let it go
even though there`s complication
but sometimes is better just to leave it
let things move on and everything will put into pieces sumday
i wish tat i really wish tat...
i`m not piss anymore
i`m not sad anymore
LOL
seriously i`m not.. i`m just goin to be calm to solve it
so it is better between me and him
and we could still be frens
if tat could happen...
he hurt me i hurt him
i dun know wat is right or wrong anymore
to me it takes both ways
to settle things off
so for now i`m just going to move on
but before tat i need to settle sum stuff
i`m starting smile again and....

i`m single again....XD LOL

finally

i found out tat everyone is mad at each other
that things will not be the same
that he is afraid and angry

i may beg and so on
cos i wan to take a risk
that things will work out
if he just tried and give himself a second chance
if he just realize

am i a fool?

Bittersweet life by my favourite highway

Lonely,
Stubborn and complacent,
You have insisted
On leaving me here,
Writing the same song
I started last year.

Lovely
Conjunctions and phrases,
Plays on a few words,
That you never meant.

I must have misread
All of the signals that
You never sent.

It's a bittersweet life,
And it's leaving me a-ok.
It's a bittersweet life,
I have loved and lost
My heart along the way.

Maybe I could still hold you,
Or you could call if you feel so inclined.
Please take your time
Locating whatever you're trying to find.

Maybe it's time to let go,
But I'm too scared
And so unprepared.

How do I forget,
Every moment in time that we shared?

It's a bittersweet life,
And it's leaving me a-ok.
It's a bittersweet life,
I have loved and lost
My heart along this.
Bittersweet life,
And it's leaving me a-ok.
It's a bittersweet life,
I have loved and lost
My heart along the way

I'm calling your bluff,
I have toyed with the idea of burning your stuff.
This is so rough,
And it's as if deserting me wasn't enough.
Well I've had enough,
I'm calling your bluff.

It's a bittersweet life,
And it's leaving me a-ok.
It's a bittersweet life,
I have loved and lost
My heart along this.
Bittersweet life,
And it's leaving me a-ok.
It's a bittersweet life,
I have loved and lost
My heart along the way

kept on reading the lyric
i realize that it defines u
i kept on holding the hope that u may come back to me
and said sorry
i kept on telling myself that u just need time and once ur done
u would come back to my arms
i`m such a fool for kept on holding
yes people may say it is not worth it and i`m just being foolish and end up hurting myself
i feel there is hope
i felt tat our connection is not the end yet
it is not easy to be done, to just forget and move on
i`m bullshitting that i am fine, that i am moving on, that everything is goin to be alrite
it is BULLSHIT

why am i still crying in my room?
why am i still remember the time we shared?
why am i still tempting to sms, call or find u from ur work place

yes it is not tat deep yet and it is just been like wat..... two months?
but u just dun know that
i had fall for u silly.....
it doesnt mean commitment or anything
it just.... i starting to fall for u that all
izzit really pressuring u?
that i finally open to u....and gave u my hope.....
i know i hurt u but it doesnt mean u need to punish me like tis...
i dun know wat ur doin but one thing i know tat u broke me....

U have shatter me into pieces
that i am the fool
who kept on waiting....
kept on hoping that u may come back...
how stupid am i...??

love doesn`t define who is right or wrong
as long u hav each other it doesn`t matter anymore

things tat i had to say

i miss u
i know it is pathetic
i just miss u
even though i`m trying to hard to be strong every single day
pretend tat nothing happen
and move on
i still do miss u
i still remember the things u said to me
the sweetest moment we had
OMG...
i`m such a fool
i am
i dun know wat to do anymore...
the only think i can do is to miss u
and move on...
still so hard.....very.....
FUCK UP MAN....
early morning like tis edi
sumore not yet done my assignment...haizz
y life so complicated...!!
damn it....

Bored.....

watching people passing by,wondering weather i cud just be the same as them

just forget the problem and just move on,
they look so care free
like there is nothing in the world to could stop them
i wish i cud be stronger,maybe just need time to heal
maybe i`m just bored
i need sum distraction
sum GOOD distraction
in a way i still think of him time to time
just to remember wat we had before
the wound is still fresh
need time to heal things up
i`m actually doing well
studying and hang out wit my frens
i`m grateful
i am.....
it just tat the temptation....
the feeling just cant go away like tat...
like i said need time...to HEAL...
XD

the place i went, its haunt me back

i went to the place again
just to get away from things
but it didnt work
it haunt me back
the time we spent
the time we laugh, cried and stare
it just happen so quickly
never though it wud be like tis
even though u treat me like tis
i nvr blame u is such a way
in the other hand
i just miss u
i miss being around wit u
i do

the feeling

A kiss is what triggered our moment
the brink where i had felt
for i see u more just
than any those i had
and you my ecstatic
it is you
that makes me smile
effortlessly
endlessly

by him

everything has change now. not as same as it is use to be. things has become more complicated and cold. how could tis happen? keep on remembering the moment we had since the first time we kiss, the first place we went until the day we go for breakfast in the early morning. everything has change since last week. it will not be wat it is use to be anymore. u would show no emotion....... cos i betray for you. eventhough you do something stupid or anything which hurts me i kept quiet cos i know that u will notice one day and things will go better as we move on. i know i hurt u but doesnt mean u need to do tis to me. i`m a human not a toy. i have feelings too.

i kept on holding. maybe becos i still have feeling for u.....

the worst of me

have u ever feel u donesomething wrong?
have u ever feel that u shudnt be in tis world?

i do

i felt that if i wasn't born, everything will be just fine.
i know it is silly and stupid......
but i felt like a black sheep in the house, a burden to my frens and the worst part i hurt ppl that i love the most.

i'm not looking for sympathy or self-pity.
i think i am strong enough to still walk and stand up and do my thing.
but i'm still fragile and weak inside.
i cried, scream, shout, all the stupid things that i cud do.
to release my emotions.
there is so many "but" in my mind.
i always could find an excuse or a reason for everything.
i`m not denying or not facing the fact.
i`m just looking for all the possibilities.
i grown so much
how i see things, it is just unusual
in tis point i`m numb
i just dun know how to say or even explain
i dun dun even know wat to do next..

i blame myself......for everything.....

finally i could be happy but end up shatter a piece of paper wit my own hands.

i felt the worst of me.
that i was the bad guy......