the things you say

explaining why am i upset and doubt myself in some way then you said:

"baby, u know what your good at?
your good at making others feel good about themselves
people often dont remember the things you have done
but they always remember how you make them feel"


slowly tearing up after that you said:

"the most important relationship u will have in life, is that with yourself"

you just made my day as always

miss you :)

couldnt bare it

it hurts to see you guys
just go without me
not even a simple call or text me
whether i would love to join
no, not even one
i guess i'm nobody to guys already
i ask you to call but you didn't
i gave you one last chance
i have enough trying so hard to be there
trying to fit in
trying everything i could to actually ignore it
but it is just to obvious
that you guys just forget about me
that is what you call good friends of mine
i don't know what happen between us
what i have done or say wrong
you guys just cant treat me this way
and just cut me off
it hurts so badly
because i was there for you guys went you need me
i don't deserve to treat this way
i really don't.

summer holiday

its been awhile since i write anything here after i got back to my home country, Malaysia. When i got back, a lot of things has change that im not use to it but slowly i do and accept the fact that the world changes so does people. This summer holiday has been wonderful, meeting new friends and doing things that i dont do often. It just feel great and i feel like i have grow or maybe change or maybe not :)

Spending a lot of time with my family and friends and most of all i met someone which i never though in mind that i would. Come to think of it, it comes so natural and just simple. I love what we are which is drama-less though i complain and nag and nag about stuff but i like the accompany, i love being around with him. Nothing more or less. How simple is that. Easy to say but not easy to be done. i have to agree with that.

i have realize few things about friends too. i have to admit what i have see, feel and think. i shouldn't avoid, denying and just accept it. i need to be more honest to myself but it is hard to do however i will try. Nothing is impossible right?

And also i feel like i have disappointed my dad because i didnt do well in my exam and i have change my university. i feel bad for this whole time and i promise myself i will do better and not fool around. i just wanna say im sorry to you, dad. He has been really supportive and has not object anything i do. i know he disagree in something but he didnt lash out i guess because he just want me to do my own thing and im big enough to make decision. Im grateful that i get to go oversea and study. Thank you fro everything dad and i love you.

it has been really emotional trip for me. it makes me miss more of it. im going back to Aussie this sunday which is just in few days. How i wish sunday doesnt come that fast.