the things you say

explaining why am i upset and doubt myself in some way then you said:

"baby, u know what your good at?
your good at making others feel good about themselves
people often dont remember the things you have done
but they always remember how you make them feel"


slowly tearing up after that you said:

"the most important relationship u will have in life, is that with yourself"

you just made my day as always

miss you :)

couldnt bare it

it hurts to see you guys
just go without me
not even a simple call or text me
whether i would love to join
no, not even one
i guess i'm nobody to guys already
i ask you to call but you didn't
i gave you one last chance
i have enough trying so hard to be there
trying to fit in
trying everything i could to actually ignore it
but it is just to obvious
that you guys just forget about me
that is what you call good friends of mine
i don't know what happen between us
what i have done or say wrong
you guys just cant treat me this way
and just cut me off
it hurts so badly
because i was there for you guys went you need me
i don't deserve to treat this way
i really don't.

summer holiday

its been awhile since i write anything here after i got back to my home country, Malaysia. When i got back, a lot of things has change that im not use to it but slowly i do and accept the fact that the world changes so does people. This summer holiday has been wonderful, meeting new friends and doing things that i dont do often. It just feel great and i feel like i have grow or maybe change or maybe not :)

Spending a lot of time with my family and friends and most of all i met someone which i never though in mind that i would. Come to think of it, it comes so natural and just simple. I love what we are which is drama-less though i complain and nag and nag about stuff but i like the accompany, i love being around with him. Nothing more or less. How simple is that. Easy to say but not easy to be done. i have to agree with that.

i have realize few things about friends too. i have to admit what i have see, feel and think. i shouldn't avoid, denying and just accept it. i need to be more honest to myself but it is hard to do however i will try. Nothing is impossible right?

And also i feel like i have disappointed my dad because i didnt do well in my exam and i have change my university. i feel bad for this whole time and i promise myself i will do better and not fool around. i just wanna say im sorry to you, dad. He has been really supportive and has not object anything i do. i know he disagree in something but he didnt lash out i guess because he just want me to do my own thing and im big enough to make decision. Im grateful that i get to go oversea and study. Thank you fro everything dad and i love you.

it has been really emotional trip for me. it makes me miss more of it. im going back to Aussie this sunday which is just in few days. How i wish sunday doesnt come that fast.

come home

before i fly back to Malaysia and yes it has been a month since i post something for that im sorry :) i have my own reason and other stuff have been going on.

This semester has really impact me in many ways. i feel more confident about my sexuality however my social skill here isnt that good. Kind of hard to mix around here but what the heck i will try again next year when i come back. im not gonna just let it be. About my studies, im kind of disappointed myself and i will study harder next year, really i will. i cant risk it anymore. Many bad and good things happen im not gonna say it cos it is going to be a long story and really long one, gosh you have no idea.

Anyway im glad im here and get to know this country a little bit. Next year im gonna make an effort for it :)

For now, i will be going back to my own country and just spend time with my family, friends and love ones.

things arent getting easier

This year i really think it is pretty bad year for me and my family. im not thinking negative or being emo. it just that the things had happen and stuff. im trying to be positive or maybe it is destiny or faith. No one could really stop it. Maybe god wants me to overcome all the bad situation. who knows, really?

This year, i really have experiences all kind of things that i never though it would happen but anything is possible right? i know that it is not that major thing but for me, it is kind of a experience and learn how to deal with it. When your alone and there is no one is there and help you, you need to deal it alone.

i have been handling it quite okay. i admit, i have few breakdown but i never give up or just walk away. im still stood where i am and what im doing. i need to motivate myself more and get determination. i know what im doing and i know what i want. However, what ever happens i will try to deal with it.

All i need is a little bit of faith and hope. it will be alright.

its been great

Miss Wong Lynn Li and Mr Dennis Pang Ngai Hong
come to Melbourne, Australia
for holiday!
from 5th to 10 of october
it been an exciting, tiring and fun week
and also i skip some class for them :P

We went to a lot of places
but basically shopping
like there is no tomorrow
and we eat some nice food
and not forgeting
we went clubbing (which is okey)
oh yeah, also drinking session with other frens too

we had a lot of fun
and this is our first time traveling together
and going places together
im glad that you guys come
because you guys kill the boring-ness
i dun feel lonely at my own apartment
and now i miss you guys :' (

Anyho i will be back soon :)
Hope that you guys enjoy the trip!
a very short one, how nice if you guys stay a little bit longer
.hearts.

Run as fast as you can

First of all, my building got fire because of the stupid nando's restaurant downstairs got some kitchen or technical problem. So everyone has to evacuate the building. Lucky i wasnt asleep yet actually i was about too but someone knock my door and ask me to run downstairs and get out of the building. I quickly grab my PASSPORT and my bag which has my wallet and my phone. I quickly walk downstairs and meet up with my friend. Just when i realize i was wearing shorts outside! freezing cold! and people look at me like i wasnt wearing anything, fucking embarrassing.Seriously it was one of a kind experience, nvr though it would happen.

Oh yeah, there were 5 firetrucks!
hahahhahaha!
so many of them!
in m'sia where got like that!
damn chun lo :P
ok, abit jakun now

When i was going out of my apartment, i can smell the heavy smoke and i started to panic and thinking everything i had in my apartment is gonna be gone. Lucky it wasnt a big fire or anything. So i still have my stuff :)

After 3 hours of clearing the building and checking everything alright, we get to go back to our own room. I can smell the heavy smoke in my room so i open the window to that the smell will go away. i was still feeling a bit shaky and unsettle in some point

I wanna talk to someone
but no one answer my call
not even my best fren
i feel so down
i just need someone to talk to me
so that i dont feel so scared
Lucky, i got my brother
he talk the whole night
keep me company which makes me feel better
im glad i had him :' )
so touch

After what i have encounter, i know that life sometimes surprise us in many ways. we cant just expect thing as it is. i guess we need to be prepare for it or maybe not. Probably later in life there is more things for us to encounter :)