in the envelope i found a note

Dear Love,

it will never be the same, without you in my life

there will be good and bad in so many ways
so just hang on tight, don’t let it go
because it will be me and you holding tight
love everything you are, your smile, your smell and most of all yourself
no one is perfect even me
but i`m lucky that you are with me

Sincerely from,
Celia

i don’t remember i wrote this letter before. i was organizing my books and stationary while i was dividing the papers i found this envelope and it written “love”. Hehehehehe

to my beloved great grandmother

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life is that simple
people come and go
just like walking out and in of the store
but i know that
u r rest in peace
and went to heaven watching over us
i think it is better tis way
dun need to suffer the pain anymore
i may sound cruel
i hav reason
" lau ma "
thank you for everything
love u
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The Lotus Touts

The Lotus Touts (someone sent to me by e-mail)

read it cos it make sense.

ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR. When you say, 'I love you,' mean it.

FIVE. When you say, 'I'm sorry,' look the person in the eye.

SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

TEN.. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN! .. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, 'Why do you want to know?'

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say 'bless you' when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and Responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. W hen you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

TWENTY- ONE. ;Spend some time alone.

i like number nine..... :-)

Happy birthday Tammy

ezra and i hav plan to gives a surprise birthday dinner just the three of us on his birthday

Venue: Ribs (near one-utama)
Time: 7.30 or 8 pm

but everything gone really wrong
suppose to meet him at nite
his phone die and at that moment i was like finding him
i search around his house and centerpoint
while ezra call sum ppl that we though he might be wit
end up we got tired and we assume tat he was wit other ppl
to celebrate him birthday
ezra and i end up waiting at his house until 8 pm
we given up and we kinda like hurt cos he promise goin out dinner wit us
so we went to Ribs ourselves and treat ourselves sum good meal
kinda pathetic though and we brought cupcakes and a pressie for him!!!
so upsetting and disappointed
i was kinda piss and same goes to ezra (sumthing la)
after that i receive a call turn out to be rastam
tat time i feel like crying edi
so i pass it to ezra to talk to him
we kinda wan to make him feel bad ( WE R BAD ASS PPL )
cos we plan so hard it is not like we forgot his birthday..

END UP...he came wit sum of his fren (actually wanted to be only three of us : rastam me and ezra but nvm la )
everything was fine then we had sum good time in the end
talk sum dirty jokes and laughing like crazy-retard ppl
we were happy....and he loves the thing we done for him ( he wanted to cry)

the cupcakes
OH MY GOD
ezra dun wan to wirte i love u so end up write OMG which i think it is cute

rastam,
this is for u

for u
i be strong
for u
i become today
for u
i hav u

cos of u my dear fren
i become wat i am now
u make me stronger and wiser
u lend me ur shoulder to cry on
u lend me ur arm just so i cud bite my anger away
eventhough u have ur temper and so on
ur still my fren
my guardian
my love
no matter wat i accpet who u r
bad or good
cos ur my dear fren
who will always be there
for me
and i know u wud too
and tat y i love u
eventhough ur a bitch.

desperate

i`m broke....seriously broke......i need cash....help?

The day u were born

my dearest beloved <3 ,

we hav been together for almost 17 years. time pass so fast that u cud take driving license edi and goin off to college soon. when u were a child, u were such a naughty brat and u hav this cute little face like an angel. i remember that when u were a baby, i was showering u wit my love and care. i always worried bout u and do watever that makes u happy. funny thing is that sometimes u made me hate u in sum way. i do. when u say things which hurts me or blackmail me ( something la ). however, after we been through ups and downs together we become closer to each other. that we actually connected and communicate ( LOL ) and help each other out. No matter how hard or misery we had, we always have each other to talk and cry on. there`s one timewhen i was young, i saw u crying on the bed because u want mummy and dun wan to be separated by her. my heart just sank my tears just come out just like tat. i cried but i stop and hug u so that u wud stop crying. i also remember that we have suffer before and been through it together. even though i dun expect u will be there for me but i always be there for u cos i love u. for the first time i said i love u to u. that no matter wat happens i`m there for u. just for u.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY little BROTHER
*wish that u cud read this

time is running out

two more week to go and it is time. it is dooms day. which we all will be suffering from stress and tension. we all will be burning late nite oil and drinking nescafe. reading and writing notes just hope tat cud remember and cud do our best. damn i hate these moment. the tension and the pressure that u might fail and redone again. wondering that end up to be a failure. so depressing and sucks. we will become zombie again. probably we wudnt sleep at all or maybe we wud if too tired. at the same time i love the feeling of rush and afraid. i just dun know why. weird . rushing reading notes and afraid tat might fail. makes me wanna study more. it motivate me. it kept on running but i`m just lazy... i know i admit...everyone is lazy but in one point we wud pick up the book and started to be a nerd. XD

dooms day is coming.
wud i manage to do it?
wud i manage to pass?
i think i better start or else i wud regret it.