when things gone bad

you do the stupidest thing and it will go worst

it is now happening to me

cos of just one lil thing

and i act on it

which will come to a big consequences

i dun think i will survive

i have this feeling

that it is going to be a long nite

a long heartache nite

Late month

ok, i know i been really boring person cos all i talk bout is my assignment and exam and etc etc

Well it is true!! but sum how i make myself like that.
Other than focusing on my studies i got nothing else to do.
Even though there are sum things that my siblings ask me to do but im kind of lazy or sumthing else :P

OK, i had an awesome MOTHER'S DAY with the whole entire family on my mother side. it was really fun, we eat like the whole day!! damn tiring and fat :P but it is so worth it and end up, sumone buy a cake and we sing Happy Mother's day song LOL for the first time!. it was different and sumthing really special cos everyone gather together as a family :)

Then here comes another thing where Lynn and the others host the ADVANCE Farewell party for me which i am so touch and HAPPY :) it is been such a long time since i go out and drink and club so ya kind of rusty edi :P im glad i know you, strawberry :)

Not to forget the stressful weeks i have it is insane and i got sick cos not enough sleep and stressing out of stupid assignment :(
HOWEVER, it is all pass cos no more assignment and NOW there is only 2 exam left for me to focus on!

OH YEAH!!
HEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHE

oh ya, there is only like 1 month left and i haven start packing yet or meet all my fren :(
hope that i can do it all :)

the truth

inside of me, slowly gaining these feeling that

i don't want to feel that i hope it wouldn't explode one day.

you were my partner in crime,

why are you hurting in a way that would make me feel better?

do you realize that now i am in a emotional stage?

You don't cos all you can think of its yourself

thinking that i will not make it, that i'm actually weak

Who i am today is what i choose to be

Even though you never realize some of the things that i do

some of the things that you don't even know

you may think i'm making a excuse

but it is what i think it is

the truth

Yes, sometimes what i do is pathetic and stupid

but it doesn't mean that i do it just for nothing

it is not that i want to get away from it

i just want to do what i want to do

isn't wrong? am i breaking the rule?

if your selfish enough to think about yourself

then what bout me? i have dreams too

i always been there no matter what

no matter where you go or what you do

can you just be there for me? just be happy for me

everyone say they are proud of me, why not you?

i'm hurt and it is sad that if you're not there till the end

i'm gonna prove myself that i can do it

because if i could make it this far, i think i could make it till the end

so ya i am not as weak as you think i am

see it yourself then.

it's a boy :)

2th of May 2010

something happen

my sister gave birth to a child

called Kayven Ng

such a nice and unique name :)

he was so CUTE

every time he sleep, he always smile

i'm glad that my sister is alright with the baby

and finally she gave birth

cos her stomach is freaking huge!

if she doesn't there is sumthing wrong man

ANYWAY

that's all :)

speaking of the devils

oh gosh

it is the month of MAY edi

time pass so fas,t it is gonna be middle of the year

:(

and im going on JUNE

SHIT! so many things to do but so little time

as usual

MY timetable exam suck a lot

why?

i tell you why!

my first exam is on the 24th may (computer exam ITP)

THEN 26th may (written exam ITP)

AFTER THAT 10th june (IBC)

FINALLY 23th june (SBM)

CAN SEE THE BIG GAP OF TIME!?

it kind of suck

i though i could enjoy my lil holiday over here

before i go to AUS

but sadly i finnis my exam on 23th june

and my flight would be on 28th june

i got 5 days!

to meet everyone, pack everything and enjoy my time over here :(

hope everything goes well

*cross finger :P

ANYWAY

was doing my this assignment and i got to edit my photo!

finally :)

if wanna take these photo do tell pls :)

thanks

freaking-licious late

i know i been MIA-ING i have my reason seriously i do :) which is that my stupid laptop cant detect my router so i cant like go surfing the net in my laptop

but NOW i can :P thanks to my retarded bro of mine :)

thank you

ANYWAY

it has been the most hectic-busy-stressful weeks

i mean weeks!

cos almost every week there's assignment to pass up

then sometimes will have tests

OH and not forget stupid presentations

which is a lot!

especially in PD2

PLUS, i need to deal with my documentation of

my transfer, accommodation, visa, health check?and etc etc

and clean my room!

i just realize that i have A LOT

like A LOT of stuff =.=

die on the spot

and i am still so calm and relax

like playing social city in fb

LOL

oh ya i need to sell my freaking electric piano

i still cant sell it!

my sister is gonna KILL me if i dun sell it before i go

or pack my things into boxes before i go

so little time but so many things to do

sad

ok guys this is for now ttyl *hearts*

Run as hard as you can

First of all, my building got fire like last week ago because of stupid nando's restaurant downstairs got some technical or kitchen problem. So everyone has to evacuate the building, lucky i wasnt asleep, actually i was about too but someone knock my down and ask everyone quickly run downstairs. The first thing i grab was my PASSPORT! gosh it is really important man and also my bag which include my wallet and my phone.

When my friend and i were outside the building, i realize i was just wearing shorts! gosh so embarrassing! people must think i am not wearing anything! and it was freezing cold! Anyway before that, when i get out of my apartment, i can smell the heavy smoke and i was panicking. i got really scared, fuck it was one of a kind experience. Never though in million years that it wud happen to me. In one point i though my thing is gonna be gone but thank god, it was nothing big!

Oh yeah, there were 5 fire trucks!
which is a lot!
hahahahahahaah
can you believe it 5 fire trucks come :P
ok a bit jakun-ness

After for 3 hours, everything was clear and everyone can go back to their room. i was still a bit shaky and afraid and also i can smell the heavy smoke in my apartment so i open my window. i wait until the smell of the smoke is gone only i go back to sleep.

However, in that point
i dont know who to find
no one pick up my call
that i could share with my feelings
lucky, i got my brother
he talk to me the whole night
to distract me to think
we talk about everything
im glad i had you :')

After one of a kind experience, sometimes we think it wud nvr happen to us but who knows. Things might surprise you. i guess we need to be prepare for it :)